December 14th, 2009 at 2:21pm
that day, i shunned away. crept into a place of deep seeded rot & decay.
tore down walls of sweat and stained brick.
this was something bigger than ever before; and this time it was going to stick.
like i said, a deep seeded feeling and, without a clear meaning.
breathing it, inhaling it. sick with it.
laughing off the friendships;
they just keep coming and going.
and then there was the sinking of the ships.
a search and rescue; no survivors.
i cried and tried; the winds were too strong.
and so baby, I know ive been wrong.
never trying hard enough,
I never wanted to belong.
Lonely, like when I was fifteen.
And before I knew it I was sixteen.
Never knew how much I was missing,
and so I closed my mouth
and started listening.
And then it opened and I was singing, along;
I never knew you that you were this strong.
Baby, please help me to be strong.
And then I asked,
Were you ever really listening; to me?
Ill never know.
And right then I started dreaming.
I really wish you could see me dreaming.
and swimming.
Sewing the seams that always seem to come undone.
They always come undone.
When I awoke ,it was too late; the smell of twilight.
And just before dawn, i grew wings and took flight.
i found a star and wished for you that night.
My leaving would not help; out of mind, out of sight.
I came upon a city of beaches.
Ill never know how you came to cheat this
But I’ll keep trying until I beat this.
And right then I started leaving.
Full of sand, sea and mystery.
Did you ever really see me?
Back to the city I was moving;
in no time.
a good place to age; like a fine wine.
a weathered tree.
a lost but never forgotton memory.
